What is going on?

I have no idea what is going on with me. Isn't this what I wanted? I feel so confused and overwhelmed. Why are you being too much? Or why am I perceiving you to be too much? You are giving me your heart and it is scary. I feel guilty even typing this but I am hoping that this ranting clears my head? What am I doing? I am horrified by my state of well being right now and am consistantly on the verge of vomiting. Please take some of it back, I cannot hold it all.